Specific overlap happening in my life now. High energy, high freedom, low obligation. That's super rare. And almost in 1–2 years all above will be gone. I know. This isnt a normal thursday midnight. It's a peak.

Opportunity is recognizing that I'm:

• Standing in one of these windows and not sleepwalking through it.

Fuck balance.

What the fuck am I doing with my life:

• Getting punched in the face almost everyday
• Punching people in the face almost everyday
• Pushing my physical limits until you throw up in the middle of a class
• Creating fake documents to graduate online - to never go back to milan - where - not traumas - but painful and dramatic remembrances are living - and they are super warm still
• Writing my thesis and prepping for the one elective course final
• Having second thoughts about the breakup I've had several months ago - brain is not clear yet from the emotions - and fucker still runs towards the comfort
• Having no home
• Actually having nowhere to call "home" - not my hometown - learned that this April
• Coming back from Milan and planning to stay in the hometown + in the family house but all the childhood traumas haunted so hard had to run away and promising myself never going back there
• Jumping from city to city
• Making alone trips to the places I've never been in turkey
• Making trips with my best friends and having the time of my life each time
• Jumping between identities - there is no real one - still exploring myself
• Especially the fact that 3 years long relationship of mine is finished couple months ago - giving mylsef the opportunity to rebuild my identity and self-trust again
• Having no chains - bc having little wants/needs from the life: build business, make money and stay healthy.
• Fuck all else.
• Exploring the concepts of "opportunity-based living" and "getting old is actually good"
• Exploring the opportunities that are only available "now" and running at full speed towards them
• Each city bringing different opportunities and making some stuff easy while making some stuff hard
• Trying to realize that and play the game by the rules and increase comfort - while getting punched in the face - yeah not running from the hardship of life - no p*ssy here momma
• Yeah last 6 months learned a lot of shit about myself and experienced a lot of things in new places, with new people, doing new things
• Increasing the risks I'm taking and adrenaline levels as much as cortisol
• Trying to build my own business - build products - try to market them - learn from the mistakes
• Setting huge materialistic goals like in couple years owning a porsche and a yacht
• Living the freest time of your life maybe - no gf and nobodies pregnant
• Pushing myself a lot into the dating scene but again and again seeing that i dont belong there
• Deciding that the place where I'll call home will be near the sea - easy access to sea (plus if swimmable) + sunsets
• Soon travelling to Asia - first for business trip and staying there and building community of like minded people - having fun and making shit ton of money

Thats it.

Currently I'm gifted with this "now" to be more dangerous, grounded and self-directed.