Last week was intense, but in a good way. There was movement, people, groups, energy. It reminded me of something simple. I do not think I am someone who is built to live too far from people all the time. Yes, I need space. Yes, I need solitude. But I can also see more clearly now that some part of me comes alive around the right people.

Not just any people.

The right kind.

People I can work next to. Sit with in the same café. Meet in the middle of the day. Study with. Talk to without force. People with a similar mentality. People who make life feel a little more shared.

That is the difference.

Because life already brings enough loneliness on its own. There is no need to add extra distance on top of it and call that strength. If there were someone more like me in the same country, in the same rhythm, I know what would happen. We would probably meet often. Same cafés, same work sessions, same walks, same conversations. The structure would form naturally. That kind of closeness would not feel heavy. It would feel supportive.

This week will be calmer, then things will get intense again. But that does not really change the point. Whether life is socially full or socially quiet, I still need to keep opening up. I am not in school anymore, so that built-in feeling of community is weaker now. Nobody is going to hand me a circle. I have to keep asking, keep showing up, keep sitting down, keep becoming visible. Confidence matters here. Not fake confidence. More like the willingness to continue without waiting for the perfect setting.

And I think that is where a lot of people get lost.

Everyone's emotional strings are in other people's hands. Everyone is being dragged around by moods, reactions, insecurities, social tension, small changes in atmosphere. Almost nobody seems able to stay in their own center. Almost nobody stops and asks, why am I being moved this easily? Why does every shift around me become a shift inside me too?

That is why I keep coming back to the same idea.

Even when circumstances change, the version of me at the center should stay the same.

If the real Efe is happy, then he should act from that place. If he wants to create something, he should create. If he wants to leave a message, he should choose it carefully and leave it clearly. If he wants to keep his energy high, he should protect that energy and spread it. That is how he grows. That is how he feels alive. That is how he looks back and feels good about the way he lived.

Because there is only one life, and when I look back at this period, I know how I want it to feel. I want it to feel alive. Energetic. Open. Strong.

Being alone has its place. I know that. But I can also admit something else now. Part of what feeds me is being with people. Being inside a group. Working with others. Feeling that shared momentum. Last week showed me that clearly. I was relaxed. I was doing work I enjoy. There was not much stress. And being around people made my energy higher.

That is not weakness. That is useful information.

So maybe the goal is not just "be okay alone."

Maybe the goal is to build a life where the right people are regularly part of the rhythm.

People you like. People you respect. People you can meet during the day. People you can study with, work with, spend time with without draining yourself. A real environment. A real circle. Not constant noise, not random socializing, but a few good people placed well inside the week.

That kind of life seems healthier to me.

And maybe it is also more honest.